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[25 May 2005|01:44pm] |
I'm deleting this journal sooooooonn..sad i know... anyway
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[16 May 2005|02:24pm] |
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Prom was great! I hope the picture of me and Nathan turns out good.. He looked soooo gorgeous that night.. I'm a little too lucky to have such a great person in my life =).. The whole night was great and I hope everyone had fun! I got really trashed at Matt's beach house and had a lot of fun with everyone.. no other way to put it but speeccttaccuullarrr.. I got a check for 100 dollars today for graduation for someone I don't even know.. It's kinda a weird feeling.. Good though.. Only one week left, finally.. Well, time to go cash my checks.. Peace out!
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[13 Apr 2005|01:04pm] |
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Well hello!! Everythings going grand.. We don't have school on Friday or next Thursday and Friday which is badass.. A happy birhday goes out to Frankster!! (for yesterday by the way) Nice talking to you again Frank =).. I don't know what I'm going to do this weekend.. Hmm.. It seems like there's so many good movies out so I think Thursday me and Nathan are going to go out to eat and see one ourselves.. Also hopefully visit Mrs. Dickinson too if it turns out to be okay... I got the Beyond Ruin shirt back yesterday.. It looks soo awesome =) The shirts brown with a teal blue outline of a pyramid and these arabic egyptian looking letters that say Beyond ruin in front of the pyramid in white.. I love it! Well, it's time for me to do my taxes at the last minute but well worth it when the bills start rolling in =).. I hope everyone is doing good.. Peace to the east and the best goes to the west!
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[06 Apr 2005|02:18pm] |
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Hello! Man, I am really really tired.. Counting down the days until highschool is over; I am so ready to leave it's unbelievable.. So I went to Sam Houston with Nathan this past weekend.. I saw Wallace and Cory there so that was nice.. The place is really pretty and I can't wait to live there.. I picked the brand new dorm but I think I'm on a waiting list but I want that one sooo much! You get your own room and you share the bathroom with one other person and you get a kitchen with fridge and microwave as well as a living room.. It's badass.. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed =).. I made my schedule yesterday with Nathan too.. I think it works really good.. But anyway this weekened I'm supposed to be going up to Huntsville to see what it's really like on a weekend.. lol... So hopefully Wallace can find something up his sleeve.. I have to work on Senior legacy today.. Project seems like fun.. So yeah that's about it... it's pretty obvious I'm excited about college hehe.. I can't stop thinking about it.. I hope it turns out to be a good thing.. =) peace out!
Oh yeah, I heard Beyond Ruin's new song last night.. It was soo badass.. Brent's voice and musical talent is soo amazing as well as the othes.. They've come a long way from a year ago and I'm really proud of all of them! =)
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[01 Apr 2005|04:09pm] |
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I love Natareno =)=)=)=)
A little too much if you ask me...
N.C.W + M.K.N = eternity
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[26 Feb 2005|09:55pm] |
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Why Hello!!! Nothing going on here, just got back from Subway waiting for Natareeno to get off.. Things have been going too swell.. I'm finally driving and all I have to say is the money is goooodd.. And time flies pretty fast so that's good.. Well, this weekend is spring break and we'ere going to try a round two at Galveston.. Different people this time, a lot different, three couples so I guess we'll see how that turns out.. I got my bathing suit today, I think it's so cute (and some matching shoes).. I can't wait to go to the beach, it's been awhile.. I love the damn beach! We finally figured out the cruise once and for all and leaving to fly to Miami August 6th.. Not bad for a graduation present, ecspecially if I get to bring Nathan, it should be a blast.. Last night I went with the Work's to magic island.. I had a lot of fun, and got yet another palm reading I guess you could say.. Two people have told me now to go to the medical field.. They say I have a "gift" But who doesn't when you're paying them 20 bucks for 5 minutes right? jk.. Bleh... Well I think I better go lie down I'm tired as a mooo faaa from work.. I hope everyone is doing too good to beee trueee... Peace out!
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[31 Jan 2005|07:20pm] |
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Well well well, a day off!!! Who would have guessed! So I'm kind of bored and fixing to go clean my room.. Today was alright, I smoked with Nathan after school which was pretty fun to me.. Then passed out after finishing Dracula which in long story short was just a really long porno.. Valentine's Day is coming up and I have a pretty goofy but meaningful gift in mind.. 3 actually... I went to the Galleria Sunday with Nathan and my grandparents after going to a travel show (my graduation gift me, nathan, my mom, mark, john, natalie, and my grandparents are going on a cruise to the carribean =)=)..) So yeah I got two hats and like 5 shirts I think.. I looked at prom dresses even though it's like a couple months away for shits and giggles and I found the prettiest dress.. It was pink with flowers and strapless.. It was purrrddyyyyyy.. I finally sarted tanning again for spring break and am going down there Saturday with Danielle to finally pick out a hotel hehe.. I can't wait to spend time with Danielle, Jackie, Jake and Cory.. Should be really groovy =).. Yup yup, I talked to the NewZelander the other day... He sounds really happy and I hope he is, he deserves sooooo soo much.. It's making me all teary to even think about it!! I think what Tony's doing is awesome and all power to him! =).. Well, Mia's just starring at me and my room is screaming my name.. Highschool's finally almost over but I don't know what to do for college... I'm really actually scared which sucks, I want to leave but I don't want to make a huge mistake.. I guess time will always tell.. =/.. And last but certainly not least work is going pretty good.. For the past three days I've had the craziest hyper rushes at work it's insane.. I feel like I'm on some damn good cocaine.. jk but yeah I'm really starting to like that job... alllllootttt.. Have a good day everyone PEACE OUT NEGROS!!!!!!
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[17 Jan 2005|08:44pm] |
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Well hello!! things have been going too great! I got to become a driver today at pizza hut so now I'l be finally making the big bucks.. Like 250-300 dollars a week =) I've never even made that much in two weeks so I'm fixing to jump out of my skin I'm so damn excited lol.. My boss was really cool about the switch too so I don't know why I was so nervous to ask him.. =) Anyway school starts tomorrow for me and Nathan.. I'm so damn sick of school! I've been trying to get as many medical excuses since we have exemptions and all.. This week I'll have 3 medical in all and we've only been in school for not even a week? Me and Nathan opened a bank account the other day and got 50 bucks for it so I finally get my eyebrow peircing done and tattoo touched up.. I've been wanting to start painting again but never feel like I have any time or money but now I will so I have to get back into that.. today we went shopping and got two new zip up hoodies from PacSun for only 20 bucks for both of them.. Yup yup.. Well, it's time for my dorky ass to go rollerblading with my kitters so, sienara.. adios.. see you later.. chunk duce.. peace out..
Wait now, here when will you believe?
Me I'm merely asking you to help me when did I say to murder?
Wait, now, here, please hear me out..
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[19 Dec 2004|11:22am] |
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Well the breaks going pretty damn good so far.. I got all A's and B's for the semester so that's pretty damn cool.. 2nd highest grade on my english exam too =) I'm a damn good guesser.. I went to the Idol Hand's show on Friday night after bartending for my grandmother.. They did really awesome.. It took me a little while to remember the songs once they started playing but they were badass.. Nice backup vocals and good job on the moving around guys! =) Seeing them play again just melted my little cold heart =).. Last night I had a little bonfire with Nathan Wallace Nick Matt and his cousin? That went pretty well.. I kinda miss having those bonfires even though I detested them for a long ass time due to spiders.. But I think sometime over the break me and Nathan are just going to buy an assload of beer for everyone and have a little partay.. Besides that I work tonight and that's about it.. Chunck duce brothas and sistas
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[30 Nov 2004|10:54pm] |
Slowly the pen touches paper in the guidance of the words that you write.
Memories roll in; of the things you once did
and who you had shared them with. Is somebody thinking of you?
Did I bother telling you this, with the words that cross teeth and jump lips?
A poor choice of words, in wanting to tell you anything.
But words don't come with ease. They're forever my hurt.
Would it really matter, if you were to count the days left with your hands?
Your focus secure and the loves you left; well
smiles staged in photographs here until...
You, you left the light on.
There's a chance I might have tripped
You were there to hold on.
Ignoring the words of your obnoxious little brother;
kill or be killed spilled the words from your mother.
I'll lay awake for a while.
I'll leave the light on a while.
But you couldn't last a lifetime. Caught between here and the days of it;
carving her name across your arm with every wish. It's hit or miss... her.
I told you so. I measured distance in lines departing the rest of my life.
But you, you, you... you had better things to do
Liar, liar, liar, liar.
If you get put to sleep, like an old dog, you're better off.
If you get put to sleep;
I've been cautious with the words I extend.
Allow this year before the world starts to end.
Your father's dead. He passed in his sleep,
and I woke to the sounds of her crying.
Your father's dead. He passed in his sleep.
Pray for us all.
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[29 Nov 2004|10:56pm] |
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well, well, well.. Things have been alright.. Nothing special.. The break was kind of good.. I worked a lot.. I got a tattoo the other day.. Pretty nifty.. I like it a lot but I need to get it touched up pretty bad.. I dyed my hair today but I'm not sure if it looks tooooo great but Nathan assures me it does so it has to.. heh.. Hmm I got the cutest little puppy (Mia) about a week ago... I might quit Subway thank the almighty one and work somewhere else if they stop dicking me around!! Subway just got wayyy too stressful even though I love it more than anything =/.. Besides that we keep finding spiders in our house since winter is coming around and I look in butt fuck egypt so I'm losing sleep over thinking spiders are in my damn sac! Overall I wouldn't say I'm the happiest camper right now, really bummed a lot.. I guess somethings missing..
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[15 Nov 2004|04:05pm] |
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Well hello! Things have been going good.. I wrote a big long emo entry about 2 weeks ago about Joe and it got erased.. I was pretty pissed because I spilt my all and well... It's gone.. But he's going to be very missed and loved and in my heart forever.. =).. My birthday was yesterday.. Not the best one I've ever had but it was nice.. Nathan got me a lot of paint and stuff to paint on, completely unexpected so that's why it was so nice =).. I got a lot of money from my family.. Not going to say how much because I'll probably look like a spoiled brat =P but it was badass =).. I can finally get some good looking clothes.. We went to Magic Island Saturday night and saw a bunch of... hmm.. magic! Me and Nathan got our palms read and tarrot cards.. It was interesting what the guy said at some points.. Besides that things are pretty good.. I have to give our dog away because he's supposedly "vicious".. I don't see how.. That's been tearing me up a lot lately because I can't get rid of him.. Why get a dog from the SPCA just to put him right back in there? What a tease.. But yeah, I'm going to go take a nap.. Peace
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[24 Oct 2004|02:17pm] |
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Well, astroworld was alright.. lol.. I kept getting really sick after every ride.. Even the one that doesn't go upside down!!! I get dizzy so easily now a days its insane.. You could push me and I'll lose my balance and be like ooohhhh my stomaccchh.. It really sucked because I wanted to have a lot of fun and tried to push the pain aside but yeah, didn't work.. It was nice though, Dungeon drop was the best.. We all got off that ride with a huge smile on our faces.. I worked 12 hours yesterday.. I was pretty optomistic about it at first but after about 8 hours lol, I started getting really mean and moody.. I was so tired I was seeing shit the entire way home and got so paranoid I thought my dog was going to bite me!! My mom was making fun of me all this morning because I was so scared of my dog lol.. So I slept for 13 hours and here I am.. bored off my ass because I can't find my other half.. heh.. Besides that this weekend wasn't the greatest because of yesterday lol but next weekend will surely make up for it.. I can't wait for HALLOWEEN! Wooooooooohhhoooo.. =).. But yeah I'm gonna go do something somewhat productive.. chunk duce negros..
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[20 Oct 2004|11:52pm] |
Well hello! Things have been doing good lately.. I cut my hours way back at work to where I work two days a week for 8 hours.. This weekend I work 12 hours straight though lol.. To pay back someone there.. I'm kind of looking forward to it, I get to eat Subway 3 times mmmmmm.. Today at work was pretty bad though.. I was off in my own world today and forgot to set the timer to the oven and burned 24 breads to a crisp =/.. Thennnn it got really busy and we ran out of all breads.. hehe.. Yeah, a very stressful day at the Subshop.. Besides that work = good
Me and Nathan went to the SPCA yesterday to get a dog.. It was one of the saddest things ever.. All the dogs were so nice and cute I wanted to take them all.. I also got really pissed off for some of the reasons they were in there.. One dog was in there for "jumping on people too much" and the poor thing was shivering in his cage because he was so scared.. I don't know how people can do that to their pets... We chose 4 to play with and chose from and that had to have been the worst idea in the world.. The decision was soooo hard.. But, I picked a dog that looked like he needed out of their the most.. He was so sweet and soo scared of being in there at the same time.. It looked like he felt like he had done something bad to be in there which was too sad so... We're picking him up Friday =)..
Friday me, Nathan, Cory, and Jackie are going to Astroworld.. I hope that's a lot of fun, I think it will be.. I can't WAIT for halloween.. It's all I ever talk about.. I got the finishing touches to my costume yesterday and came home and put it on.. I think it looks pretty badass so we'll just wait and see =)..
Besides that tomorrow I don't know what I'm doing, being a bum probably =).. Everyday is great day =D..
Oh yeah, my b-day is coming up.. I found out there's a Coheed and Cambria concert on the 13th and my b-day is the 14th so I'm going to go to that.. I can't wait =)=)=)=)
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well things are going real good.. This weekend was alright I guess.. All A's and one B on my report card so thats damn cool.. Halloween is coming up and that's like my favorite holiday so woo hoo! I really want to dress up but I guess we're getting "too old" for that.. Some woman came up to me in a pool hall and said I looked like some girl named Milla something off Resident Evil and Dazed and Confused.. I looked her picture up and man must that woman have been throwed lol... It was almost an insult when I looked up like the prettiest woman ever =/.. I guess after a looott of alcohal that's what I become hehe.. Anyway... Lately I feel like a huge bum and all I ever want to do is sleep.. I hope it doesn' stay like this..... Last night was fucking crazy with the storm.. The power kept going out in Subway and lately I've been having dreams about storms so I put two and two together and started mad freaking out.. But I'm still here! pheww... Anyway, Had a little extra time before I head off to school so that's my little update.. =)=)=)
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HELLO! Looks like they changed this shit around?? Whatever.. I've had like a 7 day weekend or something.. Friday off and I didn't go to school because of the doctor today and tomorrow I have court.. Tomorrow.. Tomorrow is WALLACES B-DAY! Woo hoo for you!!!! I was going to do a little something for him but he didn't come down so I guess I'll see him next time he's in.. I don't know what happened over the weekend.. Went to the beach Friday I know, it was so much fun.. Everyone said it was going to rain but Meghan's radars were once again right and there was cleeeeaaarr skies.. Kinda sucked because I wanted 6 people there as a change but me and Nathan had a lot of fun so whatever =).. I went to Danielle's one night, a very weird night I must add.. Weird in a good way.. Finally after a year and a half called truce with someone.. So it was pretty nice catching up.. Hmm... I really dont know what else I did.. Can't really remember.. Saw a movie... Today I went to the doctor with Nathan.. Went to an interview with him, out to eat, to the pet store and so on.. Didn't go to work today.. First time in almost 6 months I called in sick.. Just thought I might pull a 12 hour day with the crazy man.. Well... Tomorrow is going to be a semi-good day.. No school! Me and Nathan are going to start putting our paychecks together to buy two dogs.. They are the cutest things ever... I almost convinced my mom to get them today because they're rare and sell fast but...... I gotta do some shit first... 1200 dollars.. not too bad for two of the most adorable critters that ever lived =).. Yin and Yang nigga.. Well, sleep? AAhhhh yes.. Peace out negros...
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Well hello! I feel like I'm on crack so I can't realllllly go to sleep.. This weekend was too crazy to handle.. I had the craziest dream in the world and it kind of came true.. At least the people in it.. I couldn't get it out of my head.. i think... I... just... might be..... phsycic.. yesum.. It was the most insane thing.. I got my car towed at Zack's house at about 2 a.m Saturday morning.. That was fairly emotional.. I walked out to get money and I was already kind of drunk and I looked around and was like hmm.. where the fuck did I park... Kind of like dude where's my car.. But yeah.. 200 fucking dollars..Talk about some stupid sacks of shits.. Lesson learned? - don't park where it says DON'T PARK.. My cat scratched the shit out of me a few minutes ago.. my chest is bleeding really bad... =(.. I got a new dog this past week.. A very good sameritan <-- mad spelling in my opinion.. A dog was tied up at the school and they had called the pound to come get it.. I have 1st in the t-shacks and it would not stop crying through these presentations and I turned to someone and was like is that a dog?! And they were like yeah.. I was like what the fuck it sounds like it's dying and no ones doing a damn thing.. So I went out there, petted it and what not, asked the cop why is it tied up and right when he said animal control I got Nathan on the phone.. and now, we have a new dog.. It is the sweetest thing in the world.. Malekai nigga.. =)=)=) Today, I went to ChuckECheese's with Nathan and the family.. It was actually a lot of fun.. =)Anyways though, besides that that was my weekend.. Kinda nice kind of not.. Tomorrow I work and Tuesday I'm skipping school WOOO HOOOo!!!!!! I'm a true rebel... Chunk duce negros
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Good day good day.. I got pizzaaaiiddddd.. So that's a big plus.. But I'm going to try and save damn't! School is on my side this year by far.. I had to write some paper and made up the worst bullshit about myself, even the story wasn't real and I was one of 2 that got an A.. I was like DAMN! So yeah it's allll gravy baby.. Not too much was accomplished today.. Slept and went to work.. My room is a damn animal farm... 6 animals.. 2 dogs, 2 cats, 2 rats.. =).. This weekend was pretty good.. I got drunk two nights in a row which was extremely weird for me.. But back to the sober life lol.. I went to the beach Saturday with Nathan and had a butt load of fun.. It sucks because everytime I go in the water I get more and more scared of being eaten by shark.. Pretty stupid.... But Saturday I had mad reason since every 5 seconds a fish would hit my foot.. =(.. Well, that's about it.. Tommorrow should be fun because I don't work at the sweat shop.. =).. Hmm..... I think it's time to hit the sack.. CHUNK DUCE NEGROS..
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[09 Sep 2004|10:15pm] |
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Well well well.. I'm not too tired, and this year I'm so damn lazy.. I basically say fuck homework.. But also my classes are easy as shit so we don't really have much.. hmmmmmm.. Today was alright.. We've been doing this chalk drawling in art that's pretty badass.. Art is a damn cool thing I tell you.. Besides that today was pretty cool.. I'm kinda liking being at school more and more each day.. I'm a complete goof in 1st period with an old friend in there so that's tight.. And the rest are just complete crazy people so.. yeah.. Hmm.. I took my senior pictures the other day.. It felt pretty damn weird if you ask me.. Well, hopefully they turn out good.. Got some on a swing and in an arch lol.. But yeah, today after school Nathaniel picked me up and slept for like 3 hours.. I could barely move my legs today because I worked out yesterday and was pushed to the extreme.. So I feel like a huge nerd ecspecially gripping the railing to pull myself up when walking up the stairs =P.. I also cleaned my house ate at the good ole Subarenooo and went for a walk with all the dogs.. it was overall a damn good day! Me iza can't wait for iza tomowwwowwww... =)=)=)
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Why hello! I'm not that tired and kinda bored so I figured I might say a few words.. Well, this past weekend was alright.. Friday I went to Zack's house with Nathan.. It was a pretty funny night to see how people have changed.. And I guess how I've changed on top of that.. Not as weak you could say.. ANYWAY.. Saturday me and Nathan went to Galveston to Moody Gardens.. That was pretty damn fun seeing all the little sea creatures.. Saturday night I worked.. Sunday I cleaned my room spotless burning candles like crazy.. My mom and Nathan keep telling me to throw my precious little itty bitty innocent kittens outside because my room is starting to stink with 4 animals in there and bla bla bla bla bla... So Saturday I changed that cuz for some reason I just can't throw those shitters outside.. It's not right... Anyway so Sunday I uhh..... Well I don't remember.. Today I slept all damn day up till 2 pm.. Went to work.. Went on a walk.. Now I'm here.. My minds been racing since I got fucked up on Friday.. Been over a month since I've done any kind of drug... And I don't like it at all... I was depressed for like two days straight for a bunch of reasons.. One mainly because of wtf happened to my friends? Half of them treat me like shit and the other half act like they've never met me before in their life.. And I can't help but think it's my fault but then again what did I do? I want to tell myself I'm better off staying away from those people but I really do miss talking to some of them... And it seems when I try I get nothing but shut down.. Not naming any examples.. I don't know.. I guess the best thing to do is move on... It's pretty sad though... But yeah I'm going to go to bed....
There's so much evil in the world.. You find it in the most subtle places...
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